So much has changed since that day. So many people shaped who I am, and becoming.
At first, I used to hate how my life was in a way(or at least, how it was) - All forums and websites, no real human contact. It always felt kind of empty afterward. Most of the time I never really fit in with the big forums. Anime-forums was an exception, but I think most of the people started to hate me after a while(or I started to hate some of them, who knows), although I was still friends with Morgan and Leighchen. I miss those two...I still have Morgan on AIM but I never IM her and she never IMs me. Probably has way too many friends, haha.
They were probably the first few people who actually made me smile in real life, haha. And they're still two of the five people who can always make me smile, even if Im not talking to them. Who are the other three? Keep reading
Im still grateful to A4, since without them, I wouldnt have found NRP, where I met some of my best friends now. Although, alot of cool people there kinda disappeared =/ I wish I could talk to them again. I miss everyone...Yes, even you AZ.
And then after that was Shinobivillage - I think thats when I started to become less of a spammer and a little more mature, although I still was far from adultlike lol. If I remember right, thats when my perverted streak started, haha.
Thats also where I met AK - He's changed alot too...that was before his whole TG fetish. Actually, at this point, I cant even remember a time when he wasnt all "TG TG TG".
Then there was Kaikai - He wasnt...too much different really, although he seems less talkative these days. I still remember when we would have go ">_>" back and forth for like 200 messages or something lol
Lei, I dont think I was friends with till BM. But when we did start talking, I adored her lol. o_O I really missed her when she was moving, I even had it as my personal message for a while lololol. Of course, now Im alot less obsessive and stalkerish, but she still remains one of my favorite people. She's one of the other five people who can always make me smile.
I could go on and on about the people there, but that would be a pretty long entry. If I didnt mention you, it doesent mean I like you any less lol ^^;
BM(the OLD BM) was probably the biggest part of my internet "life". So much drama, so many RPs, it makes me nostalgic just thinking about it. But like NRP, alot of people I liked just wound up dying or something. Are you guys really so busy? I remember almost everyone - Notably Shura Hotaru. She had a kind of nature that I liked in a person. Sigghh.
And currently things just revolve around youtube and IM. What happened to the cool forum RPs? All the love disappeared.
Speaking of youtube - Wow, I didnt think I would become famous lol. At first it was really cool and all, but after a while it just got annoying with constant questions, annoying people (coughssqcough), and having to film over and over again. Thats probably what killed my love of pokemon. Though Netbattle healed those wounds for a while.
Oh right Thats also where I met a certain special person. =) So I guess I have AK to thank for having me make a video AND talk to her.
So far Ive just been rambling about places and some people. But its weird - it makes me feel happy in a way, remembering good times. It was after all that that I began to realize, there isnt much difference between the net, and real life at times.
This xanga too - Its funny looking back on how silly I was about things. But anyway
Id like to say one last thing, to my closest friends You should know who you are.
To the one who was like an older brother to me, You helped me alot more than I helped you, whether you think so or not. I think about things more, things I would have neglected - and thats not a bad thing at all. Your my oldest, and most cherished friend, on and offline. Oh, and dont worry too much, I have the same troubles with girls. But someone looked at me for who I was - You'll definitely find someone like that for yourself too Lets share a bottle of sake sometime.
To the one who I sought to surpass Man, you seem so uptight these days - try and be a little more mellow and friendly, like you used to be. I still want another fight with you - Lets destroy the arena in the process like we said we would do! And then get drunk off our asses afterward.
To my best(best at scaring, annoying, and driving me crazy maybe) friend We need to have an intervention with this obsession of yours. Its unhealthy. But then again, you wouldnt be as cool if you werent like that. You'll always be my friend, no matter how psycho you are.
To the guy who's always fully of sillehness, smiles and ownage Your the only guy who makes me smile constantly o_O No homo Lets play DDR sometime! Yeah, Ill break my no dancing policy, just for you.
To my silly sama Dont let the math homework get to you. Your like my big sister. ^^ Keep being awesome.
To panda-chan He'll come to his senses soon =/ Dont let life get ya down, ya hear?! Ill always be there for ya.
To my "daughter" XD Keep up your happy attitude - It makes everyone else happy too. Although you can afford to lay off the drugs. >_>
And to my sweet angel Your my light. You give me hope. And I love you dearly. I cant wait to see you (this summer?)
To everyone else I love you all =3 I hope you all live happy lives.
Count 1. It's good to improve
Count 2. It's good to rest
Count 3. It's good to think
It's good to be able to progress at my own pace.
Left behind in the flow of time
Impatient feelings are often being forgotten
It is a wasteful, reckless challenge, after all
Often saying things to that which is abandoned
Offense!! In the hard times, raise your voice
And get going
Offense!! Aim for the direction you see yourself
And meet it head-on
Rise up to the big wall
You don’t need to be afraid
In this human existence with no answers
I can pay back my confusion if I just
Keep my pace
First!! I counted, it’s OK to go ahead
Second!! I counted, it’s OK to rest
Third!! I counted, it’s OK to think about it
As I continue at my pace
Studying the truth of reason
And not understanding, we lose our freedom
Even when called a cowardly person
Take a step forward; that is courage
Offense!! Turn around, use the strength of your voice
And get going
Offense!! Bolster your strength on your shoulders
Now, look ahead
The map of the future is painted into the sky
Yet even now, it doesn’t reach
When the time comes that I stretch out both hands
I’ll be able to grasp it, and
Keep my pace
Offense!! With even just a big voice, it can be done
And you’ll see
Offense!! Aim for the direction you see yourself
And meet it head-on
Rise up to the big wall
You don’t need to be afraid
Even if it doesn’t work out and you run away
It’s not going to change
The echo of the first bell sounds
Now is the time to stand up
In this human existence with no answers
I can pay back my confusion if I just
Keep my pace
First!! I counted, it’s OK to go ahead
Second!! I counted, it’s OK to rest
Third!! I counted, it’s OK to think about it
As I continue at my pace
I just realized how braindead I am, and its annoying. I make so many more typos than I did before...and lately Ive been typing the AC to the NB servers instead of the link to the actual forums.
The girl Im in love with has no intrest in me. Good friends, but thats it.
